In the beginning...

At today's WW meeting, we were asked why we joined Weight Watchers in the first place.  People often talk about that "aha moment," but honestly, I didn't have one.  A former friend asked me to join an "at work" meeting that she was going to join and I said sure.  I've been heavy my entire life and was never one to really fret over it.  I didn't go on all kinds of crazy diets.  I saw that she'd had some success with WW, so I figured why not try it myself.  My relationship with WW has lasted longer than that friendship.

I wish I could say I've seen huge success, but if you've read my blog at all...and notice how long it's been since my last post here, then you know it hasn't been all rainbows and unicorns.  I did lose almost 30 pounds after I first joined, and then I slowly but surely put all of that and then some back on.  And now I'm having a hard time finding my motivation.

I'm hoping I can find it again.  So I reached out today to see if someone could help me and we'll see how that goes.  I'm not making any grand gestures here.  That hasn't worked in the past.  We'll take it a little at a time and maybe this time I'll stick with it.

I have 2 problems.  The first, I really like food.  That's not saying that I just eat junk constantly because I don't.  I like the stuff that's good for me.  But I do enjoy the not so good too.  I love carbs - bread is like a warm blanket.  And ice cream...most sweets really, but ice cream is my first love.  And I do enjoy things like fried clams, burgers, french fries...but after having fried clams the other day, I realize they really don't like me all the much.  Some are definitely better than others so I need to be really choosy when I feel the urge to have them.

My second problem...I'm fairly lazy.  Now I'm not as lazy as some people.  But there are days I get home from work and I just want to curl up on the couch with a good book.  I don't feel like moving.  But I'm not completely inactive.  I do move.  I walk more than a lot of people, but I know I could do a lot more.

So these are the things I need to work on.  I need to push myself to not be lazy.  And I need to make sure my food choices are much more on the healthy and further away from the unhealthy.

So if you see me slacking off, getting lazy, you have permission to tell me to get moving.  And if you only see me online, then feel free to message me either with suggestions about what I can do that day to get moving or just to check in and ask what I have done.  If someone else holds me accountable, maybe I'll actually feel like I need to be less lazy.  Guilt me into it.  I promise not to get too cranky.